Ramblings of a dutch weirdo

1.6

2011-07-15T10:27:00.002+02:00

Maastricht lag achter hem. Hij begon te lopen. Rotterdam was niks, Nederland was verloren. Wellicht dat men in België georganiseerder te werk was gegaan. Kans is klein... maar goed, hoop doet leven.
De zombies die hij tegen kwam maakte hij vooral kapot met zijn zwaard. Schoten trokken aandacht van de levende doden, dus stealth werd zijn manier van verplaatsen.
Hij bad veel. Gezien hij geen gesprekspartner had en de eenzaamheid ook zijn tol begon te eisen had Henk hele gesprekken met God en de Aartsengel Michael. Soms in gebed, maar soms ook terwijl hij gewoon liep.
Soms kwam hij levenden tegen, soms vriendelijk, soms wanhopig, soms agressief en plunderend. Henk redde zichzelf wel. Zijn opleiding en ervaring hadden van hem een gedegen tegenstander gemaakt. Mad Max gevormd door geloof zo zag hij zichzelf meer en meer.
België was niet veel beter... hij trok verder door Vlaanderen tot hij een pamflet zag van Zion.
Hij besloot die kant op te trekken.

1.5

2011-07-12T09:22:00.005+02:00

Maastricht was verloren.
Na enkele weken begon het eind van de voorraad in zicht te komen.
Mensen kregen honger en begonnen zich uiteindelijk tegen zijn goed gevoede beschermers te keren. Er was iets geknap in Henk toen een van de sergeanten een burger dood schoot.

Van de regen in de drup was een uitdrukking die hier geen understatement was.
Er werd sindsdien een kat en muisspel gespeeld door de bevolking van maastricht en de militaire bescherming. Wat men niet wist is dat ook de kogels op begonnen te raken.

Er werd bezuinigd en voor men het wist waren de zombies binnen de muren van de binnen stad.
De hel brak los. Het was een terugkerend thema sinds deze apocalyps... chaos.
mensen liepen over elkaar en de zombies, trage hersenloze wezens die puur op gewoonte, reuk en instinct werkten konden gerust hun gang gaan terwijl mensen gewoon niet opletten.

Henk zijn instinct begon meer van serve and protect richting own body first te gaan. Desalniettemin had zijn training vruchten afgeworpen. En alhoewel Henk uitgelachen werd om zijn 'middeleeuws boterhammes' stonden de meeste soldaten nu met hun kolf en bajonet te vechten terwijl Henk een slachting aanrichtte met zijn zwaard.

Henk vocht en vocht, soms niet goed wetend of het een zombie of een levende was... hij nam geen risico's, bij twijfel was het spijtig voor de andere.

De strijd begeleidde hem onbewust tot aan de basiliek van Onze-Lieve-Vrouwe.
Daar binnen kon hij met een aantal de deur barricaderen tegen de horde van zombies die ondertussen de stad had overspoeld.

Een paar uur leek het veilig... het geklop van de ondoden was niet genoeg om de eeuwenoude zware deuren te breken. Plots klonk er gebonk. Het leek wel een stormram.
Voordat men het wist kwam er een monster binnen gestormd met de kracht van een orkaan.
Deze homp vlees was 2.5 tot 3 meter hoog.

Wat, hoe en waarom heeft Henk zich nooit afgevraagd... het moest dood... en snel.
Henk ging het gevecht aan samen met anderen. Het leek eeuwen te duren en noch kogels nog dolken noch knuppels noch Henk zijn zwaard leken het te deren. De opgebouwde stamina en oefening in het gevecht zorgden ervoor dat Henk het nadeel van zijn tegenstander tegen hem gebruikte, namelijk zijn traagheid.
Al snel was het een een op een gevecht. Henk leek het onderspit te moeten delven en richtte een schietgebedje richting God.
"Als u er nog bent, nu is het moment iets te doen."
Net na deze woorden viel er zonlicht door het glas-in-loodraam van de Aartsengel Michael. Het beest werd even afgeleid door het licht. Henk sprong via het altaar richting het hoofd en doorboorde het met zijn zwaard. Het was zijn laatste poging, maar hij werkte.
Het monster viel neer en bewoog niet meer... dood, levend, waren het concepten die bij een wezen als dit van toepassing waren ? Neen.
Het bewoog niet meer.

Henk, nooit een religieus mens zag wederom de zon door het glas-in-loodraam komen en viel in dank op zijn knieën. Hij begon te bidden. Hoe lang exact kan hij niet zeggen, maar hij was in een trance geweest en was niet gebeten of verzwolgen onder de horde zombies. Sterker nog... Maastricht was leeg... enkel lijken vulde de straten, maar er was geen levende of ondode meer te bekennen.

Henk verliet Maastricht met wat hij kon vinden.
Kogels, rantsoenen, wat handzame religieuze zaken die hij vond in de kathedraal en zijn geloof.

0.1

2011-07-12T09:05:00.003+02:00

Het was een mooie lente dag geweest.
Henk had gezorgd dat Hetty van de overkant op de kinderen zou passen.
Na een lekker diner, zette Henk zich met zijn vrouw Karin op de kop van de Wilhelmina pier.
De lucht was prachtig rood, zo was het al een tijdje.

Onderzoekers braken hun hoofden over het feit wat het nu exact was.
Henk kon het weinig schelen, het was een prachtig eind van een heerlijke avond.
De purperen maan kwam langzaam tevoorschijn, Henk kuste Karin.

"Ik hou van je"

0.5 De mens is als een virus...

2011-07-11T13:24:00.008+02:00

Humanity is a Virus... a disease organism that would replicate uncontrollably and eventually destroy their environment.

12.13
Het luchtalarm klonk.
Vele mensen sloten deuren en ramen en zetten de radio aan.
Niet voor Hoofdagent Henk Heilgers, bij bureau Marconiplein.
Hij was opgedragen om de vrede en rust in zijn wijk te bewaren.
Hij wist wat er aan kwam en het zou wellicht geen makkelijke opgave zijn als de bevolking te horen kreeg wat er echt aan de hand was.
Henk besloot te posten bij een supermarkt. Als er plunderingen zouden beginnen, zou het bij het voedsel gebeuren.

09.56
De dag was zo makkelijk begonnen voor Henk, maar helaas speelde er meer.
De weinige ziektegevallen in Rotterdam waren gestorven, maar waren terug levend geworden en jaagden nu op de straten naar andere levenden.
Zombies riep men. Henk had gelachen in het begin, fabels uit films.
Het lachen was snel vergaan toen de eerste berichten kwamen over slachtoffers, niet alleen burgers maar ook collega's waren gevallen onder de 'levende doden'.
Erger werd het toen de berichten waren gekomen dat ook de gevallenen de rangen van de doden vervoegden.

14.24
Henk keek toe... hoe konden hij en zijn partner deze chaos te boven ? waarschuwingsschoten hadden niks opgeleverd, ze werden simpelweg genegeerd. Tevens rekening houdend met het feit dat als deze meute zich tegen hen keerden, ze geen schijn van kans zouden hebben.

14.50
De zombies hadden nu ook zijn wijk bereikt. Plunderingen maakten plaats voor totale paniek. Als kippen zonder kop renden mensen de straten op. Soms letterlijk in de handen van de levende doden. Mensen werden vertrappeld en Henk was zijn partner al kwijt geraakt in de chaos.
De centrale was dood en overal waren rookpluimen te zien en alarmen te horen.
Was dit het einde?

15.15
Toen schoot het door zijn hoofd. Karin en de kinderen !!
Hij was in zijn auto gesprongen en is gaan rijden. Hij was de enige die het centrum in wilde.
De wegen naar buiten waren hopeloos afgesloten.
Hij is niet gestopt... was dat een levende of een zombie die hij aan reed ?

15.30
Hij was thuis en het zag er niet goed uit. Het huis van de buren stond in brand en de voordeur van Henk zijn huis stond open.
Binnen gekomen werd hij direct belaagd door een aantal zombies, echter niets waar zijn pistool geen korte metten mee kon maken. Soms wilden ze niet ten ruste gelegd worden. Een knieschot was dan het beste, was hij al snel achter gekomen. Hij rende de trap op, weer met 2 zombies afrekenend. Dit keer goed herkenbaar en nog niet grijzig van kleur, Hetty en Jan van de overkant. Aan de geluiden te horen had hij de aandacht van de straat getrokken. Meer en meer geschuif kwam dichterbij en in zijn huis, de trap achter hem kraakte van schuiffelende ondoden.
Hij rende naar boven en trapte de deur van de ouderlijke slaapkamer in.
Nog net zag hij hoe de liefde van zijn leven, zich aan de vruchten van zijn liefde tegoed deed.
Even stond de wereld stil... toen klonken er veel knallen....
Hij moest zeker zijn dat ze nu rust konden vinden.

16.00
Henk zat in zijn uniform snikkend op het dak van zijn huis. Hier konden ze niet komen. Zijn leven was verwoest. Dat van miljoenen, maar dat telde nu niet. Henk was kapot.
Plots herpakte hij zichzelf. Het was kiezen... sterven of vechten en Henk kende maar een ding... vechten. Hij had geen makkelijk leven gehad maar daardoor was zijn insteek altijd recht door zee. Henk klom via de regenpijp zachtjes omlaag en kon zijn slagzwaard van zijn mantel te halen.
Henk was een vervend hobbyist zwaard vechter. Al sinds de opriching deed hij mee met de workshops van Zwaar en Steen in Rotterdam (http://www.zwaard-steen.nl/).
Hij besloot meteen zijn kundes te testen in zijn straat.
het vlees van de zombies bleek zwak en hij kon er redelijk makkelijk doorheen.
Echter mistte hij het een en ander.

03.30
Rijden was geen doen meer. Alle straten waren geblokkeerd met kapotte en uitgebrande auto's. Met de duisternis als partner begaf Henk zich langzaam richting zijn bureau... Als deze nog niet was geplunderd, kon hij wapens en ammunitie verzamelen om zo zijn overlevingskansen te vergroten.

05.00
Een aantal collega's verwelkomden hem. Hij kreeg eten en drinken. Delen van het bureau waren niet langer veilig. Henk besloot het om een actie op poten te zetten om de radiokamer vrij van ondoden te maken.
Het leven ging verder.

Humanity is a virus... even is you make them fight themselves, there is no way to destroy them completely.

1.1

2011-07-11T10:28:00.004+02:00

Het alarm klonk... weer.
Met een soepele routine werd de drang naar slaap in het lichaam weggedrukt en sprong hij uit het stapelbed. Zijn schoenen en kleding had hij nog aan, al heel lang aan.
Hij stonk.
Enkel sokken wisselen waren prioriteit geworden. 'Op droge voeten kun je blijven lopen!' was hem sinds het begin dat hij hier was ingedrild. Bijna blindelings liep hij door het complex naar de schuttersposten.
'ZOMBIES!!!!' riep de Luitenant. De zoeklichten hadden de lopende doden reeds in het vizier. Hij leek meerdere personen in de massa dood vlees te herkennen. Was dat niet de trauma arts en zijn assistente ?

Het inlijven bij het leger had van hem wellicht ook een zombie gemaakt. Hij had gekozen voor veiligheid boven de schamele kans om het buiten te overleven. Het leger had hem geholpen met overleven. Trainingen door mariniers en groene baretten hadden zijn vruchten afgeworpen. Niet dat Henk onbekend was met een wapen. Zijn jarenlange dienst als politieagent hadden zijn vruchten afgeworpen, maar het leger was toch nog iets anders. Hij had vooral verzocht om meer training in het 'up close and personal' gevecht. In zijn ogen kon elke debiel vanaf een muur een trekker overhalen en zombies aan pulp schieten.
Ondanks zijn toch wel snelle vooruitgang werd hij gezien als een tweederangs lid. Iemand die niet fit genoeg was voor het zware werk en dan maar politieagent was geworden. Het kon hem niet schelen. Hij leefde nog, al begon hij meer en meer af te vragen hoeveel dat nog waard was.
Al zijn familie en kennissen in Rotterdam waren waarschijnlijk al dood. Het was chaos toen er een grote uitbraak vanuit de haven uit brak na 'het fenomeen'. De ziekenhuizen lagen vol en al snel verspreide de zombies zich van daaruit doorheen de gehele stad. Hij had nog geprobeerd zijn vrouw en gezin te redden. Hij schudde zijn hoofd weemoedig, de herinnering snel wegdrukken voordat ze vorm begon te nemen.
Maastricht was met zijn eeuwenoude vestingsmuren een van de weinige steden geweest waar de bevolking na het ontstaan van de lopende doden veilig kon wonen, maar Henk wist dat dit slechts een facade was. Maastricht werd langzaam leger en leger en de mensen uit het 'veilige' centrum stonden steeds vaker als rottende hompen vlees op de muur te beuken om binnen hun godennektar te verorberen... wij.

"VUUR!"

Het ritme van de machinegeweren klonk en de roze mist verscheen.
Hoeveel ammunitie zouden ze eigenlijk nog hebben ?

Angst X

2009-05-06T10:44:00.001+02:00

Zo, nu Angst (http://angst.oneiros.be) een paar maandjes achter de rug is, begint het weer tijd te worden om vooruit te gaan kijken. Na een mail te hebben verstuurd naar de mensen die hebben aangegeven interesse te hebben om mee te helpen, lijkt het erop dat ze ook nu nog zin hebben om mee te doen. Het team zal dus worden uitgebreid want het lijkt erop dat de mensen die bij de vorige hielpen (Wim van Gucht, Onno Ebbers en Bard Neeus) ook nog zin hebben hierin. Als ik de foto's terugkijk: http://www.flickr.com/photos/larpfoto/sets/72157617470253319/ (© Wim van Gucht)Kijk ik met veel plezier op terug op een in mijn ogen geslaagd event. Ik vond het ook vooral leuk om de 2 avonden met dezelfde rollen en een zelfde scenario compleet anders te zien verlopen. Tuurlijk hebben we een rode lijn die gevolgd werd die avond, maar taktieken en uitgespeelde emoties waren compleet anders. Zo was vrijdag meer een familiedrama en zaterdag meer wonderlijk kwa reacties en rollenspel. Ze waren er op zaterdag dichtbij, een speler had een ritueel om dit teniet te doen, maar helaas probeerde hij het zonder anderen waardoor zijn lichaam en brein het niet kon onderhouden.
We nemen wel afscheid van Tim als Propsmeister, maar we hebben wellicht nieuw bloed om de handjes vuil te maken :).
Ik kijk er naar uit om weer in gang te schieten en mijn hersenen te laten knallen op een nieuw scenario... alhoewel ik nog geen concrete ideeen heb, zijn er wel wat ideeen die ik heb maar die zijn niet echt uitvoerbaar voor een Angst... We zullen met het team gaan brainstormen. Ik hoop dat de spelers er zin in hebben... en dat het animo nog groter is als vorige keer... en er geen griep heerst, want dat was me toch een partijtje stress extra. Maar dankzij vooral Gudrun is het toch nog goed gekomen.

More info coming when I have it ;)
Martijn

another internet game

2009-04-29T14:36:00.001+02:00

http://www.spele.nl/game/torenverdediging/onslaught.html

it is a very nice game.

It is another tower defence, yes. But I am really fond of these games.

Try to beat my score:

tests...

2009-04-01T14:54:00.002+02:00

Ok since a shot time I am taking some tests. They help kill time and sometimes give funny results... So far my most weird result was to be the Star Wars character I am most close to... which was Princess Leiya (go figure).

However this result might top it... am I really a devil ?

Yeah yeah... when you read the text things change, but still... Satan... me... ??? *puppy eyes, with a red glow*

You are The Devil

Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession

The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.

Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

all see it NOW !!!

2009-03-04T10:17:00.003+01:00

Ok so I am a horror freak. Not many people in the 'Rotterdam friend area' share the same passion, but thank the lord my good friend Onno (yes, you may pronounce that as: "oooh no") does. We are about the only ones who allways want to see certain horror movies in the theater.

So yesterday we went to see the remake of Friday the 13th part 2 which is (just to confuse you) named: Friday the 13th !
So to explain in short, in this remake Friday the 13th part 1 is quickly recapped in the titles. Part 2 starts then, with not the mom (who is the killer in the original F13 part 1) but our good old friend Jason in the leading role as killer.
To not spoil your viewing fun I will recap this movie quickly:

It was one of the best horror movies I have seen in the past decade !
It was an instant classic: topless women (one of them had tits you can only dream of touching), youngster who have sex get killed, the black guy is, of course, present in this movie (even a 'the chinese guys' which is new !), great kills which made us go EEEW and HAHAHAHA at the same time. It had all we hope for in every horror movie (when someone gets killed and is just lifted out of the water to show boobies one more time... I applaud the director I tell you). Most horrors try to scare you with sound effects these days (silent then BAM dolby on your ass to startle you), F13 was nothing like that, blood and gore to make the teenage women in the croud go EEEEW, not the sound !
I had a blast... this baby will be added in my horrormovie DVD collection FOR SURE !!!

Jason rules ! go to the cinema now...

stop reading... go now I say, for real !

Angst update

2008-12-08T09:31:00.001+01:00

So it is all going well.
The saturday is pretty full at the moment.
If you subscribe to the event now and pay immidiatly you should be fine.
For those who still need to pay: 1st come 1st serve...

Martijn

newsflash

2008-11-26T13:24:00.001+01:00

the rules of Angst are ONLINE....

get them now at http://Angst.oneiros.be.
Any questions... mail me.

Martijn.

teaser

2008-11-18T16:20:00.003+01:00

A teaser is online for Angst.
goto Http://angst.oneiros.be and click Angst 9.

The event is filling up slowly.
on friday : 4/8 women are filled and 6/22 men are filled
on saturday : 5/8 women are filled and 18/22 men are filled.

So if you want to come on saturday, hurry up, it is almost full.
If you want to come on friday... please do :)

2008-11-11T08:41:00.003+01:00

24 hours have passed since the event open for participation.
18 players subscribed themselves... which is great news.
Only 60 spots are open (30 a day) so be quick.

btw we need more women :)

open !

2008-11-09T16:55:00.001+01:00

like I promised...
probably later tonight the event will open and you are able to subscribe to it... keep checking the site www.oneiros.be for the notification !!

wooot... I am so syched up !

Martijn.

2008-10-30T14:02:00.001+01:00

been extremely busy lately with stuff...

Mainly with this:
http://angst.oneiros.be

more info soon... keep your money aside as a max of 60 people will be able to participate.

Martijn.

WAAAAGH

2008-10-01T09:12:00.002+02:00

Ok, so Warhammer online came out. I played the Beta and was very much disapointed with what I saw and doubted if I would play it.
When it got out I was on holiday and when i got back I was like... I am gonna try it.
So I bought it and play it now and it is a really nice game. I like it better then conan from the start on. The graphics are not as detailed as conan, but I think good enough for the game and to give the atmosphere it needs. Everybody around me seems to play destruction. I liked the empire the most of all and the witch hunter class too. So I am playing a witch hunter as main class which suits me fine. I am not on a server with any known people as of course everyone is playing on different servers... *sigh*.
So I decided to go where noone went. RVR - Sea of Dreams. Onno joined me laterwhen he bought the game and so he plays a rune priest. together we made 2 goblins on Burlok server to play with some of our friends from the LARP scene. I made a goblin Shaman and Onno a Squig herder. We are laughing ourselves silly about these greenskins. I mean how much more do you want when you get this for a questline:
Shot onto the fortress of the dwarves with a catapult, hit a dwarf on the head, drag him to an empty barrel, put him in and kick him off the edge...
or
A giant runs around, squigs biting his ankles. you kill the squigs and then the Giant is bored and want beer, zo you start collecting barrels of beer until he has enough. Then he pick up this huge bomb (just after he killed a gobbo for fun), walks over to the dwarven gate, blows it up (and himself in the process) and then the dwarves run out as a counterattack... so you kill them.
so far so good... Greenskinzzz isa funniez !

Toscane

2008-09-24T09:45:00.003+02:00

HI all, I am back. Took a while to make a post, but I have been busy and been away for little more then a week. I went to Toscane. I can recommend Florence and Siena to everyone. What a great cities those are. Especially Siena stole a piece of my heart. The way the innertown looks and feels is what I expected of Toscane. The people of Siena have a passion for a tradition they have done for a very long time. The Palio. A horserace where every part of the city has it's own horse and rider with race for the district. The great thing is, every part has its own animal, colours and coat of arms. The passion they have for it is great. Everywhere you see those coats of arms and you can buy things about it.

I let myself go and bought 2 parchments with coats and a map of the city with the districts, bought a 2 flags (1 small and 1 larger) and 2 patches. I choose La Onda; the waves.

LARP

2008-09-04T08:23:00.004+02:00

aaaah the summer ends and around me the LARP season starts to flower up like daisies in spring. This last trimester of the year we will be treated with Caege in September, Saga in october (all come, this really will be an important one), Poort in November and Manticore in December. Eternica will return after a sabatical, but unfortunatly they organise their event around the dutch/belgian fest Sinterklaas and since I already made plans for it, I am affraid I will not be able to come.
I am going to skip Caege too because in that weekend I will be flying to Pisa for a week of vacation in Italy: Toscane. I really could use it, the last vacation I had was feb-2007. That was of course awesome, we went to New Zealand.
Anyways on the Saga forum things are really busy so things are warming up again.
What also is warming up is Angst. Angst is an event that was organised by the well talented Sven de Braekeleir. Unfortunatly he immigrated to his love in Australia and Angst went with him. Me and also Onno are very big fans of Cthulhu and Angst (most Angst events are based on the Cthulhu Mythos from H.P. Lovecraft) and we decided to pick it up again.
I had done several other attempts to get Angst (which means Fear) back on the track but many people pulled back at the last minute.
Now we have a team of 4 and at the beginning of 2009 we will offer Angst again. Be there !

2008-08-29T14:21:00.002+02:00

one more for tinkerbell ;-)

update on the kid

2008-08-28T11:00:00.004+02:00

So a few days ago Thomas turned 4 months old. How time flies. As a father it gets more fun I must say. He reacts more to what you do with him and you can really start doing things with him that make him laugh. The well known peekaboo game works splendid with him. He also started going to daycare 3 days a week as the mom starts working again.
He really is an adorable kid. Really easy in handling and only crying when he fights his sleep or is hungry. I couldn't wish a better kid myself :).

He likes to play with his toys and puts all he can get his hands on in his mouth, including his hands and his feet.

Funny how everybody tells you, but you only understand when you have one. There is nothing more important in the world then your child.

Martijn.

BAck playing a bloodsucker

2008-08-18T09:44:00.003+02:00

Ok, so saturday was my 1st session in Rotterdam by Night. The vampire chronicle in Rotterdam. I knew nobody and was very curious 'how' this group role played.
It was a brilliant succes, I saw no tests, I saw nobody go outgame for 1 second and personally went outgame for 10 seconds to ask what a certain ingame dutch term ment in official terms. They use a lot of dutch terms for the 'normal' english terms so that needs some hammering in my brain, but it improves atmosphere I must say.

The characters in the domain was a nice balance to see as well...
2 gangrel (ancillae, neonate), 3 brujah (elder, ancillae, neo), 2 malkavs(me as ancillae and a neonate), 2 torreador (2 neonates), 3 ventrue (2 neonates, 1 ancillae), 2 nosferatu (2 neonates) and 1 tremere (ancillae).
Normally the Brujah and mostly gangrel dominate because of their uber combat potential, but here the Brujah were not dressed in leather jackets and breaking tables all the time and the gangrel were informative, inquisitive and philosophic instead of sharpening their claws, which was very nice to see.

People dressed nice, the location was more then ok and the ST did not even have to narrate everything and just played his character the whole time.

All in all I ask myself... why did Antwerp not be more like this.

However in comparison to Antwerp Rotterdam is more riggid (not that that is necesseraly a bad thing) and status, influence and backgrounds are not really put down as stats and therfor I wonder if that is good. However the ST has been very in control and seems to know exactly who does what and why... which is perfect.

Short overview of the session:

My character was introduced to the court by a Ventrue Neonate and he was looked at with great interest. Not many kindred of the court had met Malkavians that 'communicated' normally, which of course surprised my character. I talked to many people of the court and was informed with the case of Scarlet a Malkavian that apparently has been tampered with, by her sire, an elder Malkavian Antitribu. The prince himself ordered that the woman would be investigated and if possible restored to 'normal' status. I offered my help and by hearing what they tried to do... need it. Also had a very nice talk with the Gangrel which has gained the interest of my character... can't wait for next session.

MMORPG's

2008-08-11T16:36:00.003+02:00

I like to play MMORPG's.
I started with Everquest which wasn't that good and then a time nothing and then I played WOW a lot. I used to raid a lot and before the 1st expansion I cleared little to all content (did all but a few bosses in Naxx). Got bored with WOW, started to test some other MMORPG's which were all but nice:
Vanguard: Saga of heroes was buttugly, boring and resourceheacy (why I still wonder).
Pirates of the Burning sea was really boring as well.
Lord of the Rings online was a bit fun but lacked latelevel content.
city of villains was a lot of button smashing ending and a lot luck based.
So I went back to playing wow again. Went for Vasjh and Kael and got bored of Guilddrama again. Then I started to play Conan, which is a very nice game.
However, the lack of endgame content, the bugs in the clientsofware and last but not least my son is making me doubt to quit it.
18-9-2008 Warhammer online will come online, which would be nice. However the news that they cancelled 4 out of 6 capital cities and 4 out of 24 classes makes me doubt to play it. EA took over the company and we know their policy: Better to Release yesterday then tomorrow... so they probably were pushed to launch and needed to cancel parts of the game which makes me wonder what else they cancelled to push to release. Off course this news came after my pre-order so I am getting the game anyway.
of course WOW will release their new expansion which makes it possible to do all instances with not only 25 but also 10, which makes it more interesting as me and some others who quit are quite good at raiding and with 10 perhaps we can make something out of it without spending countless money on assholes fucking up encounters with stupid actions.
Few more MMO's on the horizon but nothing worth mentioning atm.
what to do, what to do :)

Role play

2008-08-06T10:36:00.009+02:00

I am a real nerd.

I love role play.

I have so many books at home I did not even try them all yet.

A few of my favourites I played: Forgotten Realms, Warhammer Fantasy Role Play and of course Vampire the Masquerade. And I should not forget Onno's self made AD&D world where I played one of my favourite Characters: The Ace of Spades (a jester who went from level 3 to 18).

A few on my wishlist to play: Paranoia, Shadowrun, Warhammer 40k Role play and Deadlands.

There is a Roleplay world however I never really played in (well not for a long time, the campaigns allways got cancelled after a few sessions) is Dragonlance.

I read many books about it and know quite a lot about the world.

In this world my favourite character all time plays a signifficant role, Raistlin.

The story is tragic, intrueging, and the struggle of evil and good in a man. As an apprentice wizard he was tested by his school of magic. He nearly failed and as a punishment to that his body is even frailer then it once was (with coughing attacks that nearly knock him out). His skin turned golden, his hair white and his eyes had hourglassed pupils, making him see the world not like we do, but decaying seeing everything around him dying.

It made him bitter, it made him rotten.

However he did gain his staff, a magic artefact of which he slowly gains knowledge.

In the end he challenges a god to take over the place and become a man turned god. He is all powerfull though so frail.

I really liked (and many with me) him most of all. However many character appeal to me and on spot 2 and 3 would come the Kender Tasslehoff Burrfoot and Sturm, the wannabe knight, who was more knight then most real knights were in that world.

Only on 4th place I would place Drizz't Du'orden... the drow from the Forgotten realms that most role players would place on their list as nr 1 (he is extremely kewl though).

Artwork from Dragonlance is in my eyes allways from 1 man: Larry Elmore (http://www.larryelmore.com/)

Uber Artwork from Drizz't Du'orden is mostly from Todd Lockwood (http://www.toddlockwood.com/).

This is their art.

Manticore

2008-08-06T08:17:00.008+02:00

aaah The manticore machine starts running again. I soon we will have Manticore 16, it all goes so fast.

I was there when Manticore 1 was there and played the insane Crowman there. Manticore went downhill fast from there on. I still played (and enjoyed) Manticore 2. Manticore 3 was really bad and it did not improve from there on. I quit NPC-ing, giving them another shot at Manticore 7 which was really bad as well (fighting and little to no role play). I swore I would never be at a Manticore again. But then they rebooted the whole LARP at Manticore 11. They had a new team... a team of people I knew were very good roleplayers, people I knew well. Still not convinced I awaited some time until I decided to give it another shot with Manticore 13.

I was very surprised. These guys made Manticore, which was known as a fightfest into a rich world full of intrigue and role play.

I played my voodoo kind of priest (amongst other roles) with a lot of fun.

From then on I did not miss aManticore event.

From Manticore 13.5 on I play Jäger a scout/hunter kind of, but with a nice twist to it.

He allways is kind off in the background, but some players know a lot more about him and are working with him in some plots, which is very nice. Also the Gameleaders really jumped into the oppertunitues which made him a reoccuring NPC (played him again at 14, but skipped him at 15 :) ). It was quite hard to find a photo of him (he is on 1 groupphoto and this is the only other one), but here he is, getting diner:

Last Manticore I played a lot of roles. A lot of them were cultists of the liche king as I tend to have the reputation to (when needed to) go all out with the resources I have.

I am very curious what the next Manticore will bring us... and what roles I will play :)

BTW this is the promo poster for Manticore 15.

Me on the front and the dude in green getting beaten to pulp (outgame pulp too) in one of the smaller shots.

Hahaaaa.... thanks to vince I DID find a picture of Jäger... lol never noticed it :)

Me with Misletoe and my bow

olympics

2008-08-04T16:33:00.004+02:00

Ok so in 4 days on 8-8-2008 on 8:08 the olympics will start in the most fearfull country in the world besides Birma: China.

It is horryfying this country is the largest (people size) and also on its way on becoming the most powerful nation of the world. Don't get me wrong. Most americans are as twisted as a... well twister ice cream, however china is even more fearfull.

Today on the news I heared China kicked people out of their houses to make room for the olympics... The olympics, an event that should brother people worldwide through sport has become a horrible freak show.

Leave your house, NOW !! They protest only to get arrested, NOTHING will stand in the way of the newest China propaganda: Olympics 2008.

Some more examples which shows the IOC are absolute TWATS on giving Bejing the olympics:

* The Smog level is that high, experts warned sports(wo)men can die because of the little oxygen in the air.

* If people say "Free Tibet" they will go to jail and mysteriously disappear (NOW in discount: Meat su'lp'lise in sweet and sou'l souce)

* any form of free speech is forbidden.

* China almost got away with the fact that they censored the internet, not only for their people (that happens currently everywhere in China), but also for the foreign journalists (they do not need google... it is the DEVIL!)

* Overall lack of people's right in China. China's political heads once found an old floppy with the game Lemmings and decided this would be their policy... turn all chinese people in lemmings.

* There are people actually practicing day AND night on... cheering. Really I saw on TV that a few 100 people are cramped up in small halls practicing how to clap etc. The few best would get free tickets... hang on... they are practicing cheering and only a FEW get A ticket... WTF if they would ask me that I would laugh hard and fart in their general direction. By the way they did not say more but I bet the few worst end up in jail feet in the air waiting to get their feet beat to pulp with a stick.

Aaah China... yes let's hold the olympics there, what a nice change of scenery it would be.

BTW this cartoon could be close to reality, how the olympics 2008 symbol was made:

Thanks to http://021kids.com/Picture/2008/05/03/how-the-china-olympic-symbols-made/ where I found the cartoon.

hot

2008-07-31T21:39:00.003+02:00

Damn it is hot.
It went from autumn to freaking jungle guerilla hot.
My kid really doesn't like it. He is really nagging all the time and it is hard to get him to enjoy his surroundings. I ain't 3 months old anymore but I feel the same. I feel like an animal in the zoo; Being bored at work and looking through glass realising that the nice things outside are not mine anymore.
Can some1 give me a couple of million euro's...
Please ?

blogging

2008-07-28T17:43:00.005+02:00

I find it a pity you cannot see who and how many people visit your blog.

I noticed for instance Pieter Bosman opened a blog as well.

Apparently he reads mine too... what a surprise... I have absolutly no idea who reads my blog (except for Vince who thinks I open my mind up a bit too much so now and then ;-) ).

Anyway... thanks all you people out there who apparently do find it interessting to read my Ramblings...

By the way... go see The Dark Knight...
I have a new hero in my life... he is called The Joker... played BRILLIANTLY by Heath ledger. The costume, the make-up, the way The Joker is put down... awesome.
No longer is he a criminal you can laugh about... he sends shivers down your spine... even in a nurse outfit !!

more vampire

2008-07-28T17:40:00.004+02:00

So I found out that they have a Vampire chronicle going on in Rotterdam.
Decided to dive right in and mail with the ST.
He was a pretty enthousiastic and would become one of his more experienced players as they had only a few sessions and most players are totally new to the game.

I asked him what he would like me to play... and to my surprise it was't the Ventrue or Toreador who most needed a bit support but the Tremere and especially the Malkavians.

Malkavians the least supported clan in a playerbase, that was new... so I told him I did not really had a problem with playing a malkavian.
This Thursday he will be passing by and we will discuss my character more indepthly.

Not going to spoil any more here... the clan itself is more then enough.

Ode to Danny the Dreamer

2008-07-23T13:20:00.004+02:00

"Ooh Father where are you ?
I have longed so much for you and I waited all the time for you to come pick me up. Greetje is a nice person and so are the others, but they are not You. Father you promised to stay near me"

The view zooms out, showing a single man standing alone on the Groenplaats in Antwerp. The city is empty but him... he is alone... so very alone.

"FATHER FIND ME PLEASE"

his voice booms over the globe... but still he is alone, so very alone.

"I waited like I promised, why did you put wood through my heart?
When will you come back father, I miss our performances, I miss your tricks and I miss your voice."

A little lady with bright red hair and all dressed in pink pops up from under the stones

"Danny wake up... the prince is about to place judgement on Van Rijswijck, you will like to hear the answer."

A man in the real world shakes his head and focusses on this reality, the one he is not master of. The one he does not feel connected to. He is surrounded by vicious predators, ready to fuck him over whenever they get the oppertunity. He smiles at Greetje who smiles back. He mouths a 'thank you' to her and she winks back.

*She is so nice to him. But she just is not like father... when will he be back, let's try again*

While a large vampire rises from his throne the eyes of Danny go blank and he clearly is no longer 'here'.

-----------------------

How I long back for the days of the Old World of Darkness, I had so much fun playing my character there. I really hope someone will soon decide to pick it up again and I'll be the first to be there.

Famous women

2008-07-18T16:42:00.003+02:00

Ok zo every man has a certain taste of women.
Mine is like my mind, chaotic.

I do not have a certain type I fall for (blonde, red, dark, tall short etc. etc.)
I just go HUBBA HUBBA or... mmmmh naah thanks (or in Amy Winehouse's case: AAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!).

Hollywood is filled with stupid low IQ'd bimbo's but I can't help it.
I think many of them are gorgious. Especially bimbo's like Jessica Simpson and Lindsay Lohan.
They are more stupid then a rock, but when I see photo's of them my 2nd identity (read my penis) just takes over and screams me to contact them, find out where they are and force them to make babies with me. Don't take me for a raper now... it isn't me speaking at that moment, it is my willy. Though I think that won't hold in any court...

anyways...

You might think now... so you like women with big natural breasts...
Ok I admit I am a boobies man, but that does not necessarily mean big boobies.
I had girlfriends with small (a/b cup) breastsize...
for a short while :)

I know many go like... you got bad taste in women men...
IT AIN'T ME, BLAME MY PENIS !

internetgame of the week

2008-07-18T09:30:00.003+02:00

Ok so I love defence games.

So the internetgame of this week is another defense game.

It also is very nice.

And you try hardest map on HARD and survive with all 10 civilians alive ;-)

Ladies and Gentlemen I bring you... Canyon Defense:

Fallout

2008-07-16T11:48:00.007+02:00

I allways have been a fan of Fallout.

The style of the game, the character creation system, the pipboy... the whole game (1 and 2 and also a bit tactics) were awesome. If you never heared or played fallout go buy the golden edition (all 3 games) for 15 euro at your game store and PLAY !

Fallout 3 will come end 2008 and they got me started.
It is fully 3d now and is awesome...
want proof ?
HERE !

Also look at the goodies that come with some special edition:

I see you drewling... is that a pipboy wobblehead, YES IT IS !!!
tip... you can preorder on Amazon ;-)
3.2.1.... GO

Update: for a really nice preview:

http://www.gamesradar.com/xbox360/fallout-3/preview/fallout-3-hands-on/a-20080714133932662026/g-20070606111037562096

Calam

2008-07-15T09:29:00.004+02:00

I though a while about posting this or not, I have decided to post it.

I went to Calam the past weekend. We bought a lot of stuff to get into the game (new clothes, boots, ingame cooking material, tents, furs, food, cutlery) and fit into the ingame setting.
What appears... we did more preperation on the event then the gameleaders did.
I did something I never done before in the 10 years I play LARP.

On Saturday I packed up my things and left the event for what it is.

There was no scenario whatsoever and although we had some fun, it looked no more then a camping trip in LARP style.
Like my fellow Vagant said... we do not need someone to lead me by the hand, but you do need someone to push some buttons. The scenario was null to void, which killed the event because looks were very nice. Everyone looked very ingame.

internetgame of the week

2008-07-09T12:05:00.002+02:00

all play gemcraft... it is uber.

I finished it with all secret levels complete and all levels glowing frame.

I think it is one of the best games I have played so far (on the internet that is).

http://armorgames.com/play/1716/gemcraft

tents

2008-07-09T09:59:00.003+02:00

So me and Onno bought 2 tents.
They were very cheap and we knew they were not in all that good condition.
The seller told us the pikes were made of wood and were packed wet and starting to mold and rot, hence damaging the tent.
We decided to try and unpacked them yesterday.
We did a very good buy on them.
We looked it up and new they cost 270 euro ex. shipping and we bought em WAY less incl. shipping.
Well the pikes were molded, the tent smells a bit, but no real damage.
We cleaned the iron sticks a bit and cut them in size (they were a bit too long).
But all in all I am very happy... sleeping in my own tent this weekend !

Unfortunatly Calam had a visit from the fire department and are putting up silly rules.
Fire extinghuiser stuff etc. It sucks as we don't have one but wanna cook on a fire...
We'll just keep water close... not that the ground itself will be wet enough... fire departments... safety sure... but don't overdo it :S

weekend

2008-07-07T16:16:00.003+02:00

The misses was away for the weekend so I had the house for ourselves.
Friday I went heroclixing with some peops in Antwerp... and lost hidiously.
It appears armoured men are good... but once you penetrated the armour ur done playing.

Saturday I picked up the old guitar again (no not a real one) and played guitar hero until 15.00 when 2 friends came and we played Mario Kart for while.
Was nice.

Sunday I spent to Age of Conan... I really need to level my char, I am the officer with the lowest level, but hey, I am the only officer with a kid ! :)

Calam

2008-07-02T16:28:00.005+02:00

ok been very busy lately.
Also with Calam.
The upcoming event of vzw Arrowheads. By many spit upon, but we decided to try it out.
I have bought :
* a new pair of trousers,
* a new pair of shoes
* a white linnen shirt.
* a tent
* cast iron fork and spoon
* my mother in law just called, she bought 6 stools for only 15 euro !
* 2 bottles of Mead (and 2 for onno so 4 in total, 2 with cherry, 1 with lavender and 1 with chestnut, can't wait)
* 3 extra sheepskins (total of 5 now)

I already had:
warm clothing (for bad weather), so I think I am ready for it.

The tents me and Onno bought also arrived and we are well on the way of having a complete ingame living quarters (we still need to put em up to check them). Need to buy candles (Onno has the lanterns) and a chest to put stuff in. What I also need is a piece of cloth for to cover up my 21st century fieldbed and then I think I am ready.

We were gonna play a band of orcs, but since we are only with 3 now (many people needed to go to weddings, cancelled, don't feel like it or are suddenly refraining contact atm) and decided to just play a band of 'Vaganten', which is dutch for roaming students who travel around to learn.

a bit of advertisement... they need it: http://www.calam.eu

2008-06-19T13:39:00.005+02:00

I've wanted a tattoo since a LONG time.

However I cannot seem to find the image I want to place on my body for the rest of my live.

Every now and then I stroll the internet and see if there is anything that will make me go *DING* that's it... slap me one.

However surfing tattoos makes you come across some weird ones...

watch with me here...

I allways wanted an angel or something.

A bit fantasy like but not something that goes boring after 3 years...

I am still looking...

Maybe I'll just get

naaah.... kewl... but not frankly the thing I want...

I'll just keep looking then.

offspring

2008-06-05T12:48:00.004+02:00

I really love my little son.

He might only be 6 weeks old (tomorrow to be exact).

All the cliché's did come true and therfor I am one happy dad.

Tonight he will be away with his mother and it will be awefully silent in my house.

Won't be bad for my nightly rest though.

Although he sleeps quite fine, everybody comments on the fact I look so tired...

well people... I AM !

However... all the respect to Thomas... for coping with his weirdo dad:

A world full of Nono's (not Onno's ;-) )

2008-05-30T11:23:00.004+02:00

I had my fair share of horrible workdays again.
Yesterday I went to Amsterdam through the traffic, no time for lunch.
I got there and was awaited by a nice guy from another company.
Now we had to wait for the Storage Engineer who is licensed to install.
I was there at 12.30, he was supposed to be there at 13.00.
I call him at 13.15.

Me: Where are you ?
him: Still at the client I have at least 1 more hour of work and I need to drive an hour
me: O... K....
him: I'll be there ASAP

We wait... getting bored and agitated... my time is precious, also in work.

*imagine a clock in FFWD*

14.45
I call him again:
Me: Where are you
*I hear people talking and no car noises... I think OMFG*
him: busy... my manager will call you within minutes, byebye...

At this moment I feel the urge to break someone... and the other guy... who was waiting with me is feeling the same.

I got no phonecall whatsoever... no manager no nothing so I call my accountmanager and manager... they will escalade.

16.00
guy will not turn up.
I wasted a day... and my new made friend Erwin is feeling as good as me.
He will come today... but I am not as motivated anymore... you feel why ?

I hear a truc decided to run through the road to the other side on the most busy road of the Netherlands... the road I need to travel.... what a glorious end of this day.
I decide to eat something with my new friend Erwin and leave later...
We eat at 17:00, I leave at 18:00... home at 20.45.

lemme explain:

If you are at work at another client, know you have an hour traveltime and need to be at the next client at 13.00 and you see around 11.00 you have tons of work left...

ESCALATE TO YOUR MANAGER....

the world is filled with ignorant people...
I have one gesture for them:

Chaotic mind of ... chaos ?

2008-05-28T15:11:00.003+02:00

I lot of things go on in my mind.

Sometimes I wonder if everyone had that, or it's just me.

I can rampage through several topics within minutes, ending up somewhere completely different.

Sometimes I yell my conclusion to the world who is still at topic 1 and look at me with the well known 'WTF-look'

I can't help it.. and sometimes it even tires me. There are a few things however that catch my attention 100% and I stick to it so hard it is hard to get me out.

Those things are: TV (things I like), Movies (TV, DVD whatever), Games and LARP.

You really have to wake me up then.

Many women don't get me. My mom, sis and GF have annoyed themselves several times about me shutting down for the outside world. I can really be hypnotised sometimes.

mmmh.... lost the thing I was building too... chaos again I guess...

btw play Age of Conan... kick ass game !

too many interests... too little time

2008-05-27T11:48:00.003+02:00

With a little one in the house your time is limited.
Especially is the lady of the house is taking care of him all day and would like you to do something as well when you get home from work.
I hardly have time to play my new PC Game Age of Conan but that is but a fraction of things I would like to do and get into but simply do not have the time for.
Right now LARP, Role Play, Computer Games and Board games are largely taking up the spare time I have.
However I allways see such great things I see people do and I would love to do it too, but simply just cannot find the time for. A good example is Heroclix.
I really love the game and I spend quite some money on it, however it is catching dust now... such a shame I really like the game and models...

names

2008-05-26T09:40:00.004+02:00

Ok one more thing I need to ventilate.

What is it with people in LARP and funny names.
I really HATE slapstick in LARP. Sure I played a dude that thought he was crow in Manticore 1 and 2 but if ur a PC and u decide a name like haggis hothead... come ON !!!!!

I made a comment about it and he was seriously offended... some people *shakes head and then starts to bonk his head on the wall*

ok again

2008-05-26T09:29:00.003+02:00

Ok I am clearly not good at this...
however since I am reading Vince's Blog (http://vincekatharsis.blogspot.com/) single time and enjoying myself on it... and allways learning new things about him.

Like... him playing changeling... I hope he likes it.
To be honest, without Nico it becomes even more bureaucratic.

My fingers are itching with the will to create LARP but I cannot find my place in that world at this moment.
I either want to restart the Old-World of Darkness or want to pick up Oneiros' 1night horror LARP Angst.
I miss 1 thing however: people.
I will NOT handle this by myself... I need people who want to write the scenario with me and want to do the handling on the event itself.

CLEAR ! ZAP beep...beep...beep....

2008-02-15T12:02:00.003+01:00

it is ALIVE... AAAALIIIIIVE !

no people I am not dead, I told you I was chaotic... well here we go... totally forgot about this blog for a month or 8... oops.

Quick update
vampire thing did not work... players went: ^^ meh.
father thing: 19th of April I will be expecting a son (if everything goes well).
Been WOW-ing again... yes it is an addiction
Work at a different firm now, will soon move to another department as Storage Support Engineer.
Anything else... no not atm...

30 min till weekend...
GET ME OUT OF HERE !

Antwerp

2007-07-10T14:21:00.002+02:00

Antwerp has allways been a city I liked.

I feel nice at home there and unlike many other Dutch people I do not come there to piss against the Cathedral, be loud or shop till I drop.

Many of my social events play on in Antwerp. I know many people there who I can call friend and many of the role play things are over there. It also looks like the role play folk is overall a lot less nerdy then in the Netherlands where most role players are one or a combination of the following: Nerdy, dorky, Acne filled, socially inadequate and smelly. Of course Antwerp had its fair share of those people, but the real hardcore are all role players to my heart and I love playing there.

So to all the role play homies down south… a big word up !

sports...

2007-07-06T09:58:00.002+02:00

Ok for the first time in 5 years I started being active again. Yeah I know, 5 years of playing role playing games, computer games and table top games with beer, chips, nuts and cookies has brought me the belly… I knew for some time I needed to work out again (see new year’s post). But I hate most sports as they are boring. However I went swimming this week and did 40 lanes in 50 minutes. I was broken but it was fun and I feel good 2 days later.

I think that will be my thing for the coming time… my work out: swimming.

Hyves

2007-07-05T12:08:00.001+02:00

I’ve been member of the site www.Hyves.nl for a while now and steadily my friendsgroup is growing. Although I seem like a inadequate social being compare to some other people who have like 350 and I have 27 now. However I keep getting surprised all the time from people who seem to find me. Once you add them to your friendslist you see they are member of a group of your old dancingschool and so you go look at that and you see some people from the old days again. Most of em already have 10 kids a husband/wife and are settled. Viewing that makes me feel like I should start on kids now… and I halfly am doing that already, but then again… if you bring back memories of the past… wasn’t it all better then ?

I sound like an old fart now… complaining of the good old days… but they were good J.

first doc done

2007-07-02T19:55:00.002+02:00

Ok I finished an overview with all the vampires in the domain an a status overview.

Now all I have to do is make a sheet of all those characters, and make a sheet of the boons, which will also be a hell of a job.

However I still like to do it and I am really into the old World of Darkness again.

I wanna go for it ! By the way, 5 players are playing now, I hope I can handle them.

The blood crawls where it can't go (dutch saying)

2007-06-30T11:08:00.001+02:00

Now that I finally found out I can post a blog with mailing to it, I think I will post more often. At least that is the intention.

But that is not why I am posting now. I decided to ST (storytell, host as you might call it) a new role playing campaign. I had this muze on my shoulder when I picked something up which I wanted to mould into a story. I have asked Bard and An for my first two players and they said yes. My document is almost ready. It is a 40 page document with info from the domain of vampires and their surroundings. I am having the vibes again, let’s hope this will not be the umpteenth work in progress thing that will never see the daylight.

BACK

2007-04-20T11:30:00.001+02:00

ok I decided to kick this Blog a bit back into Life... if anyone is still reading it.
Busy weeks coming up.
This weekend I got my family coming over to watch things from New-Zealand.
The Weekend after that I have a LARP (Caege Renaissance, very curious how that will be).
And the week after that I have Saga and the week AFTER that I have my birthday.
I am still not sure what to do with it though... I wanna do something but I do not know what.

Happy New Year

2007-01-02T09:23:00.001+01:00

As everyone in the world I wish u all a happy new year.
I feel like crap though. My eyes sting, my throat hurts and I almost puked while coughing this morning... nice...
Still, a new year.... a fresh start and time for new year's resolutions.
I gave up smoking completely now.

I quit about 2 years ago but was still a casual smoker. I decided to give it up, living life a with a breath of fresh air.
I also need to loose weight. The target is 10 kilo's to start with.
I need to move again, but the problem really is to: 1. find someone to go with and 2. find something you both like to do.

I really passed the point I do sports for fun. I am a busy guy and can think of a 1000 more fun ways to spent my time then by moving around and getting all sweaty and stinky.

I know I sound like a real standerd person here... but hey, I never claimed I was special.

Done.. over... heading for 2007

2006-12-27T09:48:00.001+01:00

Well Xmass is done and work started again.
Nothing as shitty as working between Xmass and New years, but somebody has to keep the economy up.
I get the idea most businesses run a skeleton crew anyway. Why not give the whole country off between those days.... I'm in favor !
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I'll be celebrating New Year's in Leuven this year...
should be fun, curious how crowded it will really be :)

got to go on...

XMASS

2006-12-21T14:50:00.002+01:00

Christmas is the most weird feast of the year.
Christ is born and we celebrate… 90% of the dutch do that without going to the church and see it as a free day off…
No problem. Then they changed it, Christmas is a time where we spent time with our family and have a good time.
Then Christmas became a day where we should think about others… the less fortunate so to speak.
Then the commercial aspect kicked in… presents, diners, Santa Claus (cheap rip off of Sinterklaas made up by Coca-cola).
You tend to get confused. What should one do.
Christmas is certainly not a day where we think about others. Statistics show that we spent more and more money on exclusive foods and presents.
Everyone shouts it is wrong… we are capitalistic pigs…
I’ll tell you what… I think Christmas is a good excuse to eat good food you normally do not eat, receive and buy some things for your loved ones and stuff myself with white wine and food like the stuffed turkey on the table.
Don’t start about the less fortunate etc., I worked hard for my money and I spend it how I want to !

Happy Holidays… celebrate em however YOU feel fine… but do not start to criticise my way…

shit...

2006-12-20T16:18:00.001+01:00

Shit happens…
Everyone has shit, steps in it, falls in it, get hit by it… hell some people even swim in it.
That is just a fact. Some get it more often or in bigger measures… but it is very common.

But the fact is that it happens to everyone.
Of course I have days where I wish I wasn’t here or I could just forget it all for a day or 2.

However I tend to get irritated by people who let themselves be drowned in their problems.
You got fired ? of course you will have the urge to hang yourself for a while, but nothing in this life is for free and nothing will surely come to you by itself (unless you got a loving cat or dog J).
Problems are not always your fault but you sure need to solve them yourselves.

Get off that lazy ass and work on your problems.

I always amaze myself that shit tends to stick to people who always have problems.
You have people who are happy and never seem to live life in a ray of sunshine and some people just always have bad luck… broken cars, getting fired because his company went bankrupt etc. etc.
It is a shitty thing but that’s life.

You always have people telling you their whole life-stories with broken relations and stuff like that… do not compain… WORK on it.
Even worse are strangers you sit next to on the train etc. you politly say hello and there they go…
“oooh hi… yeah sorry I take up this much space but my foot is bruised when I was helping my deadly sick mother at home… she has cancer you know”. We all nod politly and hear it out… but really I wanna say is: SHUT THE FUCK UP !!! I am NOT interested in ur shit, I got plenty of my own… trust me…

Loosers…

Ramblings of a dutch... HEY 1st post !

2006-12-19T09:58:00.000+01:00

Things go on in my mind... a lot of things go on in my mind. I am known as a chaotic person in lifestyle. I tend to miss simple things in life... My Girlfriend allways points me to them though. I do not see dishes pile up until my plates are all gone. I do not see the laundry pile up until I have no more socks. That is just me.

However chaotic my lifestyle may be, I am very straightforward when I feel bad about certain things. I used to have the hide of an elephant... as thick as anything. However I notice that this is slowly changing.
More and more do I notice that when I feel that people do me wrong, I tell em what I think. And I do so very straightforward. Perhaps that makes me an asshole, a basterd and a rude jerk, but at least I get it off my chest.

I used to swallow a lot of shit about people until I needed to explode somewhere... most of the time when nobody was around. I think the turning point in it all, was when I quit my function as main scenariowriter for the LARP I used to organise. I got a tonload of shit put over me and from that point decided I would tell people they should STFU or ask them what the hell they were doing, when I deemed it right. And so I did the day before yesterday.

Someone who I spoke to reguraly and thought to be a straightforward person pulled a shitty thing and when I confronted him about it he brought bullshit excuses which weren't true as well, he talked himself into a corner. He went offline quickly... saying that I could suck it and if I wanna be mad... I think he pushed that well known ignore button. pity...

I don't get that... especially if the person allways claims to be straightforward and honest to people... I guess some people just are when they think you will think they are... I keep being amazed of the human psyche and how politics seem to be a natural in every human.

That is why I started to create this blog. Ramblings of a weird dutch guy...
I just write down things; I grab something from the chaotic soup that is my mind that seems to keep playing up in my mind, hoping that by putting it all on (virtual) paper, will ease my concience a bit. so this is actually my confessioncorner... a bit... but then for the world to read.

I don't give a shit...

Ramblings of a dutch weirdo

1.6

1.5

0.1

0.5 De mens is als een virus...

1.1

Angst X

another internet game

tests...

You are The Devil

all see it NOW !!!

Angst update

newsflash

teaser

open !

WAAAAGH

Toscane

LARP

update on the kid

BAck playing a bloodsucker

MMORPG's

Role play

Manticore

olympics

hot

blogging

more vampire

Ode to Danny the Dreamer

Famous women

internetgame of the week

Fallout

Calam

internetgame of the week

tents

weekend

Calam

offspring

A world full of Nono's (not Onno's ;-) )

Chaotic mind of ... chaos ?

too many interests... too little time

names

ok again

CLEAR ! *ZAP* beep...beep...beep....

Antwerp

sports...

Hyves

first doc done

The blood crawls where it can't go (dutch saying)

BACK

Happy New Year

Done.. over... heading for 2007

XMASS

shit...

Ramblings of a dutch... HEY 1st post !

CLEAR ! ZAP beep...beep...beep....